Well, here goes..

So, I've tried the blogging thing in the past- always with great intentions of posting interesting, witty things daily (I mean, come on.. I'm hilarious).. it usually lasts all of 4 posts. Then I get bored. Or distracted. Or I realize that my life simply isn't interesting enough to post about for the world to see. With that said, I am going to try again, but I'm going to be trying something completely differently.

I am starting a weight-loss/get fit challenge. I'm calling it my Scale-Free Weight Loss Challenge. I'm going scale-free for two main reasons: 1) I'm more focused on getting healthy and in shape than a number on a scale (more on the reasoning behind that later), and 2) I don't have a scale.

I used to be skinny- like.. gangly, stick thin. I have a large bone structure, so the combination left me looking a little awkward, IMO. I don't want to get that thin again. I want curves.. boobs, a butt, a little meat on my bones. I'm not worried about a little tummy. But I want to be able to fit in normal clothes again. I want to have the confidence to dance in front of people (but ONLY if I'm drinking.. I'm a terrible dancer). I want to be able to chase Grant and Opie around the yard without needing to stop and catch my breath. I just want to be a better me.

I haven't decided if I'm going to make this blog public or not yet (yes, this kind of defeats the purpose of writing a blog in the first place), simply because I haven't completely come to terms with putting my fat-ness out publicly. I think most people can relate to this in some way or another- only taking pictures from certain angles or head shots only, not wanting to be standing right next to the skinniest friend in pictures, not wanting to wear stripes or certain colors/patterns because it might make you look bigger, etc. Anyway, my plan is to take regular pictures of my progress, probably showing my bare belly, because I want to come to terms with what I'm working with and where I want to be. In the same way that I wouldn't be caught dead in a bikini, I don't think I'm ready to put everything out there for anyone to see.

But who knows? I kind of like the idea of putting it out there too, and having people hold me accountable for my progress in reaching my goals. It'd be a huge step, but it could be really good for me. We'll see :)