Shield your eyes!

Warning.. the following images are not pretty. However, I'm hoping that putting it all out there for everyone to see will be motivation to work hard and reach my goals. Took these just now, and it's really hard to post them. I generally avoid full-body pictures of myself, not to mention I try to keep my rolls covered up at all times. But, this is who I am. I don't know how much I weigh, I'd estimate somewhere around 250-260ish. I'm 5'9", which would put my BMI at 38.4. Ouch.

According to WebMD, my healthy weight range is in between 125-169. When I was a senior in HS, I was around 160-170 (although I have grown a little over an inch since then). I'd say that's probably my ideal weight. I still had a little belly, boobs and a butt. Perfect. If I get too skinny, I look gross. So that means I have right around 100lbs (give or take) to lose. A big number, but like I said.. I'm not that concerned about the number. I just want to get to a size/shape/weight that I feel confident at and allows me to be more active.

I want to slim out my upper thighs, hips and neck, and get rid of the belly overhang that I never got rid of after Grant was born. Getting rid of that back roll around my ribs would be cool too, but I'm never showing skin that high up anyway, so I'm less concerned about that. I don't know if it's possible, but I also want to lose weight in my fingers. Like I've said, I have a large bone structure, so even when I was skinny, I wore around an 8 or 9 ring, but I think I'm at a 10-10.5 now. My neck/chin area also makes necklaces not fit/sit right. I wear 18-20 jeans, and size 2 or 3 in Maurices size shirts. I'm hoping that while I lose all this, I don't lose ALL my boobs. I'd say I'm somewhere around an E/F right now (I haven't bought a bra since DDD a year or so ago), so I can lose a decent amount of boob, but they've always been large for my size, and I don't want them to disappear.